Sunday, July 10, 2005

Bittersweet

Some people spend their lives heading towards their dreams. Some people never manage to accomplish it. What is gained is not the dream but the journey towards it. The friendships built, the experience gained, the leadership skills honed over these many hours spent. To you, you may not have succeeded at all. At least tell yourself you've tried. It's the only thing you can do now.

"What you cannot enforce, do not command."

But to enforce we have to command?

"It is simple to live in complexity and complex to live in simplicity."

I guess this statement cannot be less true.

If you do fail in accomplishing your dream, remember always that the by-products of chasing this dream will be what ultimately pulls you through this failure.

Regrets will be inevitable. You will wonder, why did I choose this dream, knowing it was near impossible? Why did I not face up to reality and continue deceiving myself? Even when the truth had stared at me in the face. Why did I hope? Why did I fail? What did I do? What did I not do? A hundred and one questions and unquestions will run through your mind, and you will stand there, shocked and helpless. A stampede of truths and untruths will be presented. Suddenly the tears that ought to accompany this doesn't flow from your eyes, but in your heart. Unable to express and release this pain, you turn to stone, and live in redundancy.

If you really do regret in this way, then you have truely been brought down, not by your failure to accomplish your dream, but the failure to face up to it and live life as normal.

Be patient. Live with this pain if you have to, as you continue with life. One day, someday, it will pass, by some revelation, healing, or by courage to start a new dream.

I will miss you.

5.moon.sky was here at 9:14 pm