Sunday, February 25, 2007

Living Alone

In order to live alone, you have to learn how to be a housewife first. You need to know what your house needs in terms of kitchen ware, toiletries, bedding etc. You need to know how to buy fresh foods. You need to know how to cook the fresh foods. You need to know how to wash up. You need to know how to wash the floor, clean the cupboards, wash your clothes, how to keep things tidy, and when to do all these things. It involves extensive mental planning and energy and enthusiam. For me at least.

Living alone in a different world entails coping with being alone in a new place at night, in city with sounds unfamiliar. It involves exercising your influence into your new abode, erasing the memories of its previous occupant's existence. It includes breathing in air that is fresh -unfamiliar to your lungs- and navigating through streets by their names, instead of by their landmarks.

In that different world, you need to learn how to be thick-skinned. You will need to learn how to ask for help from anybody about everything.

All these require courage. It requires courage to leave the pride of knowing your environment well. It draws courage to leave readily available help. It extorts courage to face four walls with all your things around you, but with nothing to do, and no one to face.

Don't worry I'm fine.

You meet new friends, see new sights and smell new flowers. The worst is over, and things can only get better. When they do, my life will bloom. After all, winter must pass before spring arrives.

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