Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Stand Still

Sometimes life comes to a standstill, and you wonder what the hell you are doing where you are now. Life isn't exactly stagnant, just so routine and tiring that you see no meaning in what you do. Then you begin to think back and consider the factors that brought you to this stage of life, whether the decisions you made were correct, if they were reckless, and if you should turn back. When you realise that turning back is not an option, but can't seem to see any road ahead of you, you feel trapped. Trapped - a loss of freedom, bound by the restrictions and limitations set by the rest of the world.

Then God said, "[N]ow you are sad, but I will see you again, and your hearts will be filled with gladness, the kind of gladness that no one can take away from you. When that day comes, you will not ask me for anything. I am telling you the truth: the Father will give you whatever you ask of him in my name. Until now you have not asked for anything in my name; ask and you will receive, so that your happiness may be complete." (John 16: 22-24)

So I asked God, "What do I do now? What do I need? I've asked for so many things but none of them seem to come. Tell me what I should ask you for. I've asked for humility, for the right judgement, for forgiveness, to forgive, for discipline, for love... What exactly do I need to ask from you to fill what I lack?"

Then I remembered that morning's bible sharing, on what I shared. I chose the sentence 'he will lead you into all the truth' (John 16:13), and talked about how we should always turn to the Holy Spirit for answers, because He comes from God and will tell us what we need to know.

So that was the answer. The Holy Spirit is what I need, because He is the answer to everything. I need God in my life - a life centered with God, a life for Him and with Him, and through Him and in Him I will have all that I need.

He is sufficient. So what if there are crosses on my back?

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